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Hi there readers and helpers...

so i have been training for the marines recently. i have also been helping out people with some bullying problems. i am also looking for some fellow people who would like to help me with some anti bullying things. i am also looking for some reliable people to make administrators, (hope i spelled right). i am almost down to my weight goal but still need to work on the crunches and pull- ups. if you are interested in  helping me let me know here k? ^_^ thx

my future...

hey my readers. today i have some awesome news. i am training to become a marine. some of you might agree with it and some might not, but i am proud to be one of the less than 1% who would choose to do this. God Bless America!!!

I realized something...

I have changed my old ways. I used too get into fights for no reason but now i am not a violent person ^_^
i am already a nice guy but now i do not need to answer with my fists. i am proud that i found that out. now i am one step closer too becoming a better aid too those who need help with bullying.
^_^ i am happy with those who also look up this blog. good job guys!

some sad news...

i got some sad news. my computer apps teachers nephew is dead. he committed suicide and has passed on. i feel so sad for my teacher and his family. his nephew was only 20 years old i though i never knew the person i feel an emptiness inside me. i ask you all who read this that believe in it too pray for him. or whatever it is you do too show that you care. thank you.

My audience...

My audience... I am hoping that i can reach people all around the world with this blog. and hope that one day I may become a spokesperson against bullying. That is one of my few dreams that I have. It is an extreme goal but I hope it is one that I will achieve. This is another reason I made this blog. I hope i get recognized for this one day. ^_^ ( that would be awesome.)

Sorry for the late entry...

Sorry for the late entry... i was trying to blog over the weekend but was not able too :,( .I want too wish a Happy (late) Mothers Day too all of those amazing mom's out there. U ladies totally rock! ^_^
If any mom's read this blog and are probably trying to use it too help there chlidren or child with bullying... thank you for passing along my message and the message of others on being against bullying.

Thx for all the requests everyone ^_^...

Thx for all the requests everyone ^_^... you all are making me so happy. i feel that i am actually making a difference in some peoples lives. ^3^ i am honored that you guys have invited me to be friends on this. and for all the views i have gotten so far. when i first started out with this blog i did not get that many views but niw i am getting 100x the ammount from then. i thank you all for looking up this blog and for even possibly making a stand against bullying. thankyou ^3^

who i am...

who i am... is a nice guy in a life of evil. everyday i am thrown into evil things like my stepdad and other people. (laughs) so i am confused of who i am too become. i am not proud of somethings i have done, or the things i think of but i love myself. i have few people in my life that i can feel safe with so i am the only one i can trust and keep safe. i have lost many of friends and family members. (cries) and i have never been able too say good_ bye too a lot of them. it seems that whenever i get close too someone they leave me in pieces. :,( all of my gf's have hurt me so deep that i have not healed yet from any of them. (laughs) look at that i am just spilling my guts out on this blog and that seems kind of different for me. but i need to let you all know. that i do understand you all, i have been there through it all.

what can i do too help...

what can i do too help... i made this so i could help people in need, but i can not even solve the problem with my stepdad. i can not solve my problems yet i go and try too help others which is easier for me. humph how is that even possible? so you all know i am in special education. no i am not mentally challenged but i do have difficulties with certain things. i have add, adhd, ptsd, seperation anxiety, and autism. now most people might think why would i get help from some special ed person... well it may be do too you able to understand that no matter what, no matter who, can have the same pain or the same struggles in life. i feel pain like you do. i deal with that pain as well. but i have trouble expressing myself. i used too get into fights alot because i would get teased and all there was in my life was negativity. i have lived in children shelters before even. my life has been a constant battle for sanity and peace. i do not know if it is even a battle i could win but it is one i must fight.

Last night...

Last night... i made a choice. I am now homeless and am fed up with my stepdad. last night he made a threat against my life again. he said that he was going too kill me. either with his shotgun or a baseball bat to the head. i am fed up with people like him. if anyone else reds this please leave a comment on what u think should be done :,(  . everytime i see that someone has looked up this blog makes me happy. i feel like i am actually doing something good in my life. my life has only been of pain and anytime i find some good in it, it always leaves me. i have never had a positive role model in my life ever. so i have tried too become my own role model. i never want too be like my stepdad. i am a nice guy who he is trying too make evil. i made this blog so that people could make there lives seem a little easier or so that they can get help with anything they need. now i am the one who is in need of help. so please let me know what i should do k?    :,)

i did a good deed...

I did a good deed... I helped stop a fire at an elementary school playground. I was leaving the skate park and noticed some smoke at the school.. i went over and saw some fire and tried too put it out. i was not able too do it myself so I went too get some help. i tried too flag down five cars and trucks too the point i was ready too run in front of them. i finally got a truck too call it in while i tried too keep it under control. i am happy nothing bad happened.

When life gives you lemons...

When life gives you lemons... you make lemonade. that there can be changed too match bullying too. If you get knocked off the horse you get back on the horse. but, too me a better one is if you get knocked down you get back up. Do not let the bully think he has won and get back up if he/ she knocks you down.This tactic may not make sense, "they may do it again", then just get back up. If they challenge you too fight them do not fight them. if they hit you. do not raise you hands and strike back. if you do not raise your hands to them, you have proven you are the better person. Some of you reading this may think that would be dumb, but it is also wise. right now it is kind of hard too explain but i hope you understand what i was saying. ^_^

Are you a bully?...

Are you a bully?... you might not think you are but you might be. if you hurt others to try and feel better about yourself then that could be classified as being a bully. i am not saying that bullies are people who want too needlessly hurt others, but are also hurt themselves. i am a victim and a bully so i can understand both sides. but the reason why i was a bully was because i was not confident in myself. and i was bullied and hurt at home. bullies themselves are usually victims too. they maybe bullied at home or at school. maybe because of peer pressure or some other reason. but bullies and victims are two sides of the same coin in my perspective.

how too help?...

How too help?... there r many different ways you can help a friend or someone you know who is being bullied. One way is too talk about it with them. they may not want to so do not pressure them about it. when they are ready they will tell you. plus do not confront the one who is the bully, it will most likely make things worse for the other person. remember if they need help they will let you know. it might not be clear at first but they will tell you.

what should be done...

What should be done... about people you see bullying others? One thing you could do is tell an adult... especially if it is at school. If you think it will make you look like a Snitch... it will not. if someone gives you a hard time about it... do not listen too it. you did the right thing.

When life seems hard...

When life seems hard... do not wish for it to end, but wish for life to begin. There may be times when it may seem that life is pointless and that death seems the best way to go, but it is not. A lot of you who read this might think that he does not understand, but I do. When i was growing up i was bullied by my family and at school. I used to get picked on for my height, my ethnicity, and the way i looked. I used to get into fights quite often too when in elementary school. That still did not help. i tried to end it all, but that did not help either. some of you may judge me, or others. But i ask you to look to yourself and ask yourself why you judge others. what is broken in (me) you that makes you want to do all of this. it may seem dumb to some but it can actually help you find what is upsetting you.

WHAT SHOULD I DO!?

my life seems so crazy right now i don't know what to do? i have a friend i would give my life for and it seems that i have given her my soul instead. i must protect her with my life at all cost even if from herself.I WOULD DIE FOR HER IF NECESSARY!! i love her with all my being but we can not be together. I SHALL NOT LET ANYTHING BAD HAPPEN TO HER WHILE I STILL DRAW BREATH!! i hope those who read this blog would do the same for the ones you love.

what is life?

is life just an excuse to live to die? or is it something more? who is the one to say what we should do or not do with our lives? is it right to take our own lives 'cause we can? or to suffer and die slowly?

Stand- up

The other day I saw some people bullying another person. I did not like what i was seeing so I went over to see if I could do anything to help the victim. when I got over to them I asked if everything was OK. The victim did not answer but the agressor did. He said that it did not concern me and I should walk away before something bad would happen to me. I did not want anything bad to happen but when he said that i could not walk away for fear of what might happen to the victim. So I stayed their with the victim and the bully finaly left. the victim said thanks and i replied back never let someone walk over you again... stand-up for yourself. but never start with violence.

I am doing this blog because I want to show mine and others point of view on bullying. more to come shortly!